hello.
the weekend has helped me to reflect a lot on the recent events. i think i have cultured myself to be very comfortable with my complaining and that has helped me to become a bittercake.

the whole last week was just baaaad because i fueled it myself. okay, before i carry on, i am not making this blog entry to this whole 'wow-shawn-has-got-enlightened-during-church-so-he-is-super-positive-now' thing. it is just that i got a little slap on the face during the sermons that was preached during saturday and sunday. me hearing myself complain and sulk has just made me super pissed off, and my week unpleasant. i am still sulking la but i think i have to snap out of it? fight fight fight with me and pray for brighter mindsets. think silver lining! for a critical/negative person like myself, i have to work hard to change my mentality.

so i went for dinner with pam and gang for dinner at lagoon. esther is going off to melbourne tomorrow. haha somehow esther's farewell dinner ended up with me not talking to her at all! i think i just smiled at her and asked if she wanted to sit at my table. she was like one table away from me i think. i sat with veon, jinlun and brendan. managed to catch up with brendan in the midst of gobbling down chicken wings and stingray. he is his usual self - being an ass and thinking up of tricks, still not apologizing for that water bomb stunt... aiyah anyway, he is going off to east timor next next week and will be there for a year. i hope he doesn't read this but i think it is going to be a little sad. working with dorothy and him (esther too) during youth camp was pretty enjoyable and ya, i guess i am saying that i am glad to know him a bit better. at least i don't dislike him that much now. my first impression of him was a scenario where i overhear JB and him saying that i was 'ku niang.' aiyah hahaha east timor is going to be funnier with him, gladys and (haha) joanna around. kinda excited to hear the stories when he comes back. god bless!

sigh i am seriously procrastinating man. really lazy to do up that missions booklet thing for this sunday. i planned to work the whole day through but ended up doing other things instead. i started the morning with facebook, then downloaded mac's version of monopoly, watched transformers animated (which is lame), sang along to itunes and watched a couple of mtvs on youtube, went wallpaper and desktop icon shopping, finished up with genesis (woo!), ate an early dinner at 3pm, lazed around in my room for a bit, played word challenge, read johnny's blog and a few others, bathed... and typing out this entry now. wah i am very sian to start.

better log off the internet for a bit. going to the church office again tomorrow to meet up with my fellow bittercake friend. i think i'll probably go to the airport to send esther off... and have popeye's again. last time when i went there during byron's send off and it was really good. ack, don't really like the airport. everytime i go there, it is to send someone off. i never travel! grrr..

oh ya, silver lining. :) :) :/